Capture Your Grief - Day 12 - Lemons + Lemonade

Today's question was "Have you made anything positive come from this unimaginable loss?"  To be honest, I'm still looking for the answer to that question.  I see alot of negatives: anxiety, stress, pessimism, no trust of doctors, clinginess with Gary, overly paranoid with the kids.  I could go on and on.  I'm still trying to figure out what positive I can latch on to this, but I just don't have one yet.  Maybe next year, I'll have found one.  She will always be there, behind us, this invisible person who so vastly affects us.