Rebecca had a great birthday, last Saturday.  I thought I would share a photo or two and some video of her eating cake.  We skyped and facetimed the grandparents, and while it's better than nothing, and it's great that we can do these things, with all the new amazing technology.  I sure did miss getting through a big party.  I was day dreaming about how much fun we would have had back in Florida, with a cook out, kids running around the yard, and every body we know from Church hanging out for several hours that afternoon.

















Anyway, she didn't know the difference, and I did a few things to make it special.  We had a family field trip that morning, and I decorated the kitchen for her birthday.  I had trouble finding owl stuff, the really cute ones I found on line were back ordered, so I found some little birdies in pink and teal.  She loved the attention.  The best part, I didn't even get on camera, was when they sung Happy Birthday to her at Red Lobster.  She bounced and clapped, and grinned and everyone.  Then of course she tried to grab the candle.  Gary thought she might be one that would, and he was right.  She is still enjoying playing with the balloon, when she can fight it away from the other two.

I had my 1 year doctor's appointment this week.  I now weight 19 lbs 11 oz, and stand at 2 ft 3 and 1/4 inches tall.  I will be going to see a specialist in a few weeks about my clogged tear duct.  I did not like getting shots, and I have been informing everyone, ever since in my most complainy voice, while insisting on being held all day long.  I also have forced Daddy to sing pretty much every moment he is in my presence.  Maybe if I complain enough, next time they will think twice about giving me shots.

"Rebecca put Momma into a Cage"

Us painted at the library yesterday.  Us painted with strings and with paint brushes.  Us swirled them around.  It was very fun.  Me make pictures of Momma in a cage, and a rainbow.  Us read some books about painting.  I want Momma to get me some more art for school.  I like pink and purple art best.  I want to learn about mixing colors up.  You put your paint brush in one then two.  We have mixed blue and white, and it makes another blue.

Today we started learning about my favorite planet - Saturn.  Grumps and I are going to eat cacorn and watch it.  It is my favorite because it has all those rings made of ice.  Maybe the rings came from a moon that bumped into Saturn and it would be destroyed.  And now it makes all those beautiful rings.  It is a round ball of different kinds of gas.  The white clouds are made out of cleaner (ammonia clouds), and they have small great white spots that are storms like Jupiter's great red spot.  Saturn only has one really big moon - Titan. It is yellow like Io so I bet it has sulpher.  It also has two special moons - shepard moons.  They keep the rings together.  This guy found Saturn and thought it had ears.  He was wrong.  Someone else had "highscray telescope", that means a telescope that could see more far away, and found out that they were rings.

Rebecca,

I sit here typing, while trying to rock and hold you, humming our go to song when you are being pitiful, "When Sorrows Encompass Me Round".  I am astonished to think that you have been with us an entire year now.  You have such a open loving personality.  You prefer me, but aren't clingy the way Britt can be.  You are very happy, but have a fire about you that Ruth doesn't have.  Unlike the other two - one who is just like Daddy, and the other who is just like me in personality - you really are more of a blend of the two of us.  And yet of course, you are your own person.

You look up to see what Britt is up too, before burying you face back into my shoulder and sighing the way you've heard me do nearly every time we cuddle.  Then you pop that thumb back in your mouth find your taggie.  You are such a fun age now.  You can walk, but are still light enough to be carried.  You can entertain yourself or play with the other two, but still want to be cuddled.  You are finally done with breastfeeding and formula but aren't picky about what food you eat yet.  You aren't talking yet, but it's getting easier to figure out what you want, or don't.

It is amazing to me just how fast you have mastered walking.  In a week you have gone from falling about every 6 steps, to not falling at all.  You aren't moving that slow either.  You have sprouted 2 new teeth this month, and I think you may be working on more as you are rubbing your gums in the back alot and tugging at your ears again.  You are completely on milk in a sippy cup and table food now.  Though, I am using the last of the baby cereal to thicken applesauce in the mornings at breakfast, at least until we use the last of it up.  You continue to love all sorts of fruits and vegetables best, though you've started eating a little more meat.

I have packed up all of the 6-9 month clothes except for a few dresses, and that's only because we only have one long sleeve 9-12 month dress.  Surely it will warm up soon, all the cute outfits are summer time clothes, and I am sick of winter.  You seem to agree with me, as you make faces anytime we go out into the wind, and you weren't enthusiastic about your first time out in the snow last week.  I feel for you, since we aren't suppose to let you wear any kind of real coat in the carseat, moving between the car and buildings isn't exactly warm.  You remain in size 3 diapers, but they are starting to be a little more of a stretch around your belly.  When we finish the current mega box, I'll probably bump you up a size.  I'm curious to see what the doctors will say next week at your doctor's appointment.  I feel like you've really grown in the last two months though I think you are still short for your age, you seem to finally be putting on some weight.  Your hair sure has grown too, it will stay behind your ear now, and as long as you don't pull the clip out, it doesn't get in your eyes anymore.  I think I'll be waiting on that first haircut a while longer.  Your eye hasn't cleared up yet, so I expect that we will be getting a referal from the doctor as well.

You don't really talk, though you are very expressive with your actions.  I am always amazed at how you play with your siblings.  I know they say that babies can't play "with" others at this age, but you really do.  Britt and Ruth have pulled out the tools and are working on my furniture now, and you were reaching for them.  I sat you down, and you immediately went and found a tool and started "helping".  I see this alot, you grab the little knife when the others start to sword fight, or get your little combine to drive, when Britt or Ruth pull out something with wheels to drive.  If they all jump on Daddy to wrestle you waddle over and grab a leg.  I even noticed this week, Britt asked Ruth "Do you want to play with dinosaurs?" And you went to pick one out before she could decide and came back to Britt with it.  I think you understand alot, and always want to be a part of the action.  You like to sit and turn pages in books, but don't care for me reading too you.  You always act real impatient to get the page turned, like you are bored with the entire process.  It's the only thing that you don't care to do with the older two.

I have no idea when you wake up in the morning, since you are always playing quietly in your bed when we check on you, sometimes even when Daddy peaks in before 7.  Around 9 or 9:30 you start letting us know you are ready to get up, eat, and get out of the bed.  You take a long nap, usually going down around noon or one, and sleeping till 5:30 or 6.  Then you eat supper and want to spend most of the evening being held, before heading to bed anywhere between 8 and 10.  Our days are pretty routine other than Friday and Sunday.  Friday we spend in town running errands, and you nap while I wear you in the grocery store.  Occasionally like today, we will all venture into Harrisburg on Saturday. Sundays are harder because you don't nap well unless you are laying down in your bed, and we are gone all day.

We hope you keep your laid back personality and determination.  I really do think that you can do anything you put your mind too, if you pursue it.  But being able to go with the flow is something that your Daddy has the market on, that I don't.  If you can hang on to that trait, you'll find that you have alot more peace than your Momma has, that you can make adjustments and still get to where you want to go.  We love you so much, Little Bit, and can't wait to see where you go in life.  You are a blessing, and we pray only God's best for you.

Love,
Momma

I painted Tinkerbelle and my Ice Fairy.  They came from my aunts.  My aunts are very sweet.  I got them for Christmas.  I like them.  I am going to put them up on my shelf with my things.  My like both best.  Britt got somethings to paint - Spiderman and a bad guy.

-Ruth

Happy Valentine's Ruth,

Daddy loves you.  You are 3 and 1/2 today, but you seem almost older than that.  you are no longer dependent on diapers.  You are capable of eating with a fork, though you don't always.  You can get your clothes on and off without assistance.  In many ways you've become very self sufficient in this very short year.

Britt and you seem to be just as close if not closer than you were last year.  You continue to play well together, and you seem to be right with Britt in school.  And now that Rebecca is getting older and more mobile, you try very hard to include her in your games and theatrics.  You get to be the big sister now, a role you seem to enjoy.  This past month you've started going to a local homeschool co-op, every other Friday you get together.  Momma says you are doing very and well fitting it.  It doesn't surprise me, as you play well with others and know no strangers.

In other areas you do still seem young.  You still need Monkey WAY too much.  We've started limiting you on where all he can go, because you lose him, and we have to frantically search, as no other monkey or toy can compare.  You still like to suck your thumb like a "Ba-by" which you hate to be called.  Part of that is monkeys fault though, it's a reflex when you have him.  One more reason we are beginning to limit him.  Getting you to eat an entire meal is a real struggle.  I know your hungry but forcing you to sit down and actually swallow food is frustrating.



Things we need to work on this year are not whining, getting better at picking up and cleaning up, and we are going to start doing more little task.  You have some like putting away dishes after you finish eating, but Britt really does most of the chores.  We also hope to do more school and projects with you.

You tend to have a very loving and happy personality.  You enjoy playing and being with others, not just Britt, but kids at Church.  You have an eagerness to learn and figure things out.  Your favorite saying is "in just a second."  You are a bit too demanding at times, especially when you want a cup.  The bad thing, is that you demand it, take a swig or two and then leave it.  I guess you weren't dying of thirst after all.  You want to do everything Britt does - play in the bathtub, sleep in the same bed, fight swords, dress up as superheros at the same time, but you tend to have a much more calm demeanor than he does.  He runs head long straight forward into life, and you tend to be more go with the flow.

In that line of thought, what I hope to help you learn is to be content.  One of our main problems, or disciplinary concerns with you, is that you whine and complain alot.  Being content isn't something that you can learn overnight.  It is something that everyone struggles with, but with brothers and sisters you will learn sharing and a concern for others more quickly.  Contentment, to a certain degree is learning to put the needs of others ahead of yourself.  If Rebecca is playing with a certain toy, even if it is one of yours, it is always better to let her play with it, while you pick out another toy.  We have more toys than we know what to do with between you three, and I find it important that you learn to share with one another and play together without fighting.  I love the fact that you tend to be easy going and happy, but you sulk when something doesn't go your way, or when you lose in a game.  You can have a temper, and you need to learn to more content with having a good time with what you have, rather than what you don't.

I love you, Ruth, and want you to keep on smiling and laughing.  My prayer is that you grow to be a loving and caring lady.

Love,
Daddy

Dear Rebecca,

Momma is being her normal self, refusing to let me call you Becky J.  On a good note, Britt calls you Rebecky sometimes.  Which is funny, because Momma can't stand for you to be called anything but Rebecca.  But it is fun to call you Becky J, and RJ, and many other shorter versions of your name.  So, Rebecca, Happy Valentines Day, and happy one week early birthday.

It's been a year of lots of changes for our family and for you.  You being our first child to not be born in the South, so Britt would call you a "Ankee".  You were born in Feburary.  I got a job offer in March.  I started to work the first of April.  You all moved here the first of May.  Life has been changing all the time.  From your last post I wrote, you were just starting to have a real crawl, now you have progressed from speed crawling to standing up and walking.  You are now eating alot of table food.  It's great because you aren't a picky eater, and especially love fruits and veggies.  You seem to really enjoy noodles and grapes.  We've discovered that you are already better at this eating thing than Britt and Ruth.  You have started taking baths with the other two.  While they are playing in their own world, you are content to watch and listen to them, and maybe chew on a foam toy.  I can still wash your hair without you having a meltdown about water in your eyes unlike the others.  You still have a very contagious smile, and seem to light up when people make contact with you.  You seem to love to be picked up and held by anyone and everyone.  Also, to Momma's joy, you really love snuggling and cuddling.  You seem to be easy going and happy with most things in life.

You really enjoy following Britt and Ruth around.  You try to play with them often, even though they are much bigger than you.  Seems that they will run into the dining room playing, and you crawl off after them.  Or when Britt plays on his leap pad, and you try to sit in the middle of it to see what he's doing.  One of Britt's favorite toys that you like to play with is a retractable toy knife.  You like to wave it at him, and sword fight with him.  You with the dagger, and Britt (very careful) with the sword.  It seems the most animated you get is still with your bottle of formula.  When we mix it up, you bounce up and down, and it's really no surprise since your siblings were the same way.
















Comparing you and your siblings, you seem to pick things up much faster.  Particularly crawling and walking.  You seem very good at feeding yourself, with actually very little mess.  You also seem to be able to entertain yourself for a time quietly in the bed or the floor.  Also you have a fondness for Kita.  You like to sit and stare at her, and you try to edge up as close as you can, right within licking range.  While, Kita's still not quiet sure what to do with you.  Some of the things that you are not as fast as the other two at this age.  You don't talk and communicate much.  The only time you really only communicate is when you are fussing wanting to be picked up, or if we aren't coming fast enough with a cup or bottle.

Each year, Momma forces me to pick out something that I want to teach you, some important character trait that I want to instill in you over time.  I hope to teach you to be gracious - as in giving and forgiving.  To have a giving spirit, is a wonderful gift.  It is something that I have to work at on a regular basis.  It isn't just poured into you, but something you have to cultivate.  To give of yourself, to be love and kind to others even when they aren't, to be an encouragement in times of distress, these are hard things, but
this is a trait that is God honoring, because we are serving and helping one another.  The second part of being gracious is also to be forgiving.  This is even harder to do, especially when someone has done something wrong to you, mistreated you.  You have two older siblings that in someways will be pushy, headstrong and it will be helpful in your life in your relationships with them to learn to be gracious.  However, this will also serve you in the rest of your life.

Happy Valentine's, Sweetheart.
Love,
Daddy

So yesterday, was a normal sort of school day.  Britt and Ruth were sitting and playing playdo.  Momma was reading from Exodus, something about a tent.  I was hanging out in my high chair munching on peanut butter cheerios.  Kita was sprawled out on a kitchen rug.  When all of a sudden she looked up and saw this.
 It was going something like this.  One for me.  One for you.  One for me.  One for you.  She reached over, grabbed the camera, and got a few pictures before fussing at me.  I don't know why I'm not allowed to share.  All she does is talk to the other two about how good it is to share.  Sides, that's what Kita eats for a treat when she is training.  It's not like it was bad for her.  We were having a real good time till she broke up the party.

I had fun in the snow with Daddy.  He scooped up big snow and threw it everywhere.  Throwing snowballs was my favorite part though.  I rolled them all up in a ball, and then I couldn't throw them.  Daddy took them and threw them at Britt.  I forgot to sneak one and throw it at Daddy.  Maybe next time.

Kita likes snow too, she's so funny.  She eats snow, and puts her whole face in it and shakes it around.  Then she runs.  I like to watch from the window.  I don't like outsie much. I don't like cold.

I got a magazine from Ahna in the mail. It was all about Musk Oxen.  They have curved horns and big big fur.  They have it to stay warm when it is winter. They live close to us, almost at the North Pole. It is cold there. They live in a group called a herd, and their babies are calves too. I really like it. It was a good idea Ahna.

It's tough work drinking from a cup.  It took Momma and Daddy about 30 mins the first night before I got a sip.  I've been working at it all week.  I can't really hold it up without help it's too heavy.  I don't like it in my mouth and regularly pull it out to look at it.  I've been laying in the floor drinking it some like my bottle, but I've not yet managed more than about half a bottle's worth.  I really didn't like juice at all, but I'm doing a little better drinking formula through the cup.

Britt and Daddy went to the doctors office.  Momma and Ruth and Rebecca stayed at home.  So it was just girls.  Me watched Sleeping Beauty with Rebecca.  Us do jobs.  We clean up in the kitchen.  That mean pick up all things off the floor and wash cups.  We do the jobs in the living room, like pick up toys and hold Rebecca so that she don't get off the couch.  It was very fun to be just us girls.

My favorite parts about my birthday were eating my cake and my presents.    I liked blowing out my birthday candles. I didn't make a wish.  My favorite present today is a different kind of Tonka truck.  It was a good birthday cause I chased and sword fighted with Daddy.

So I've been mulling over my New Year's Resolutions for this year.  I'm fairly late at this, most everyone else has already given up their resolutions right?  But I figured it's still January, so why not.

• My biggest resolution for this year is to pay down debt.  This year we paid off $25,865 - unfortunately that includes alot of relocation expenses we had to eat, repairs on the house, and all the appliances for this house.  Some of it went to student loans, and the rest to paying off debt we racked up during the Dark Days of Unemployment.  Still it's amazing since we only had work 8 months of the year.  It's painful to think how much debt we have, but I'm focusing on the positive, that Gary has a wonderful job, and we are finally making real progress.  My goal is to pay off all of our remaining debt except for the student loans, and two personal loans from a family member and Church member.  All in all if all goes well, and we can stick to the budget we will pay off around $12,367.  We had hoped to pay more, and still might, but heating oil is costing WAY more than we guessed when I drew up our initial budget for the year.  Plus we are planning a few trips back home.  Gary and I like alot of the Dave Ramsey stuff, but we think some things are worth the trade off of paying down debt more slowly - for example, as many trips home to see family as possible, and making all the Church meetings we can. 

• My next biggest goal is a personal goal.  It's to do more parenting with less yelling.  I'm ashamed to admit how much of the day I spend yelling at the kids, up the stairs, down the stairs, I'm repeating myself for the seven-hundredth time today, get this, do that.  I've been feeling really convicted about it lately, and giving alot of thought to how to get compliance alot faster.  I've also been thinking about how to keep my temper in check when I don't get compliance.  This is an area that I really need to work on, because I would like to have a semi-peaceful house. (I mean as peaceful as you can expect with a boy sword fighting down the stairs, Ruth impersonating a banshee, Rebecca who will soon be in the midst of it and the dog racing around like she's training for the Iditarod.)  Not to mention, I really don't want to be modeling this behavior to the kids.  I'm not completely sure how to accomplish this, though I think some of it boils down to getting up, and not yelling - I admit I can be a bit lazy.  And, I doubt this will be completely knocked out by the end of the year, but I hope to really work on this area. 

• One of my resolutions last year was to network with some homeschoolers, to make a conference, and to see if it might be the right fit for us.  I was able to go to some local events, found a co-op that we are trying out this semester, and attend a curriculum fair.  However, we missed out on a big homeschool convention.  The one here in PA was the weekend we moved, and the one back in IN was later in the summer.  We have it down on our calender to go to the one in Harrisburg this year.  I'm excited to learn more, check out some more stuff.  And we plan to continue to give this a go.  I got some GREAT advice from Sister Andy back home, she said take it one year at a time.  If at any point it's no longer working, try something new, and if at some point we decide it not the right fit any more, we can always look at other options.  And I really like the idea of not locking myself into anything, and just seeing how it goes.  My dad is fond of saying that what works with one kid might not work with the next one, and what works one day for one kid might not work the next.  I think I can take the same approach to homeschooling.

• Last year I wanted to read the entire Bible through chronologically, I fell off the ball in November, and didn't quite finish up, but I really enjoyed it.  It really made the Old Testament make more sense to me.  This year though, I'm reading through it on the same schedule that everyone else at Old Carroll is on, after all there is strength in numbers - in that we can encourage one another and bounce questions around.  I'm going to finish it this year.  So far, I'm on track.  It has helped so far, to incorporate it as part of the kids school.  I read it aloud to them while they draw or play with playdo, and then we talk about it.  I've found it's WAY easier than finding time alone to study.  Because either it happens first thing in the morning and I'm falling asleep while reading, I try to sneak off during nap time and a movie, OR I wait till bedtime and Gary is fussing at me to turn off the light already.

• Finally, I want to get back to working on some craft projects.  Last year the thing I really wanted to do for me, was a dog class with Kita.  Which we did and we both enjoyed.  I'm not sure what I will work on this year yet.  But I have two baby blankets started.  Jonathan is 3.5 by now, and Evelyn is almost one.  The last entry I have in our scrapbook is that we are expecting a girl (and that would be Ruth) so they are nearly 4 years behind.  I haven't painted or done any sewing in who knows when.  And I would like to do a better job about keeping up the blogspot, aside from the kids' blog entries and letters.  I'm sure that I have come up with more than enough to keep me busy, but perhaps putting it all in print will make me more accountable.

Rebecca,

Little doll you were 11 month's old yesterday.  I decided to wait a day on your post, so as not to "steal" your brother's thunder.  So much to record since I was unable to write your letter last month, there was just way to much activity so close to Christmas.  Even though I couldn't stop to write, you didn't stop growing.  I think I will pack up the 6-9 month clothes soon and pull out the 9-12 month clothes.  Several things seem to be a little tight in length, and a few of your outfits are now showing off your growing little-biggy belly.  You are wearing size three diapers, and I imagine you will be for some time.  You still only have 6 teeth, but have been rubbing across your bottom teeth and gums alot lately, and starting to grind your teeth again, so perhaps some new ones are about to come through.

The biggest change has been that you have very good balance and will stand up in the middle of the room, or let go of furniture and stand for long periods of time now.  You have excellent balance until you get very excited about something and down you topple.  You took your first step and fall the day after Christmas, but on the 8th you actually took intentional steps.  This is a new trick that you are practicing often and everywhere - the house, Church, co-op.  I have learned not to call to you to encourage you, because in your hurry, down you plop and off you crawl.  You are working at walking for the sake of walking, not because you are actually trying to get somewhere, as crawling is still so much faster.  The most steps I have seen you manage is 8 so far.

Since your last letter, we've celebrated Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year's.  You loved seeing all of our family.  You adore being held by everyone, and playing with anyone who will take you, or who will allow you to play with shiny jewelry.  You are a little more attached to me, and typically want me to hold you after a while, or when you get tired, but the separation anxiety has passed.  You did pretty well traveling - sleeping for long periods in the car, and babbling with Britt the rest of the time.  Your favorite toys are two presents from Christmas - the little puppy Aunt Ree gave you (that much to your dismay got left in Florida) and your new owl taggie.

The lack of routine didn't bother you so much as the others, but it has left us a little out of sorts since we've been back home.  It's hard to plan going out when I'm not sure what kind of day you'll be having.  Some mornings you revert back to the old routine where you take your morning bottle between 8 and 9 and then go back to sleep until 11 when you get up, eat lunch, have another bottle, play until 3:30 or 4, go down for a nap with a bottle, get up around 7, eat supper have another bottle, and then play till around 10 before heading to bed.  Other mornings you stick to the loose semi-routine that has developed in the last month or so of traveling and chaos where you take your morning bottle between 8 and 9, get up and play till 11, eat lunch take another bottle, go back to bed until 3:30 or 4, get up and take a bottle, play till supper between 6 and 7, then go to bed with a final bottle.

You love to eat.  I mean really love.  Your favorites are still fruits and veggies.  It's so nice to have a child that likes that stuff.  The other two, got real picky about them when we went from purees to real food.  You especially liked olives and blueberries, though they both result in the WORST diapers.  One day last week, after eating a little sausage and stewed squash and zucchini for supper.  Then, you ate all the left over rice, sausage, squash and zucchini, then you finished what Britt and Ruth didn't eat.  Then you ate an entire roll.  When we were out of food, you came in the living room and saw Daddy finishing up his food, and started demanding more all over again.  I'm going to have to start you on a third meal soon.  I'm hoping to go ahead and start you on a sippy cup soon.  I have been putting it off, since you can't really hold up your bottles, but I want you off of a bottle by 1.  Plus, I think I might start you on a little juice this month, and I definitely don't want that in a bottle.

You are doing a little better during Church about sitting and not fighting me on the bench.  I often hand you off to your Daddy during preaching, you seem to be stiller with him for the most part.  Plus that lets me make a few sermon notes, so that I have them for loading the sermons to the website later.  You still don't like to sit for long periods of time.  But, I have noticed that on days that I hold you, while reading the kids their school books for the day, you are getting better about sitting still in my lap.  (Even though you are attempting to turn pages faster than they can be read.)  You still need very little discipline on a daily basis, Daddy and I disagree on whether you get into less trouble or whether our standards have dropped.  Most of the time a stern look, shaking my head, and telling you "No-no" is enough to make you stop... at least until I walk away.

You continue in your adoration for your brother and sister, and your curiosity for the dog.  You have discovered the dog water dish, and I really have to watch you in the kitchen to keep you out of it.  Kita has finally learned when you are loose in the floor, that she is to lay down.  We now allow her to be off the lead with you in the room.  She's progressed alot in her training.  She's very patient with you, letting you crawl up, and lay across her like a pillow.  We are currently trying to get her to not lick all over you.  It might be a lost cause, but you don't seem to mind.  You are definitely buzzing your lips, in an attempt to say Britt now.  He LOVES it.  You have added one other word to your repertoire - pop.  We were eating popcorn one night, when Britt kept trying to tell you what it was called, you popped your lips back "pop" and now use that word from time to time for all food.

I am excited to start thinking about your birthday.  Though, I am a little sad that we can't have a big party with your family and our friends, like with the other two.  It was so much fun to celebrate and thank the people that helped us survive the first year of baby.  We love to watch you grow and learn.  We love to watch your excitement for the simple things.  We love you so much little bit, and thank God for you.

Love,
Momma

Britty Boy,

I have gone back and reread the last 4 letters I have written you as well, as spent a rediculous amount of time looking at the pictures from just after you were born.  You were so tiny, so dependent on us, and we couldn't help but be filled with wonder of this everyday miracle - the birth of a child - that had come to us.  I will confess that I might have been slightly teary eyed when thinking of how much you have changed, and how fast the time has passed.

You have really blossomed this year in so many ways.  Really starting within a few weeks maybe a month of turning 4 we started to see so many changes in you.  You were all of a sudden completely potty trained during the day, not even needing reminders.  By March you had turned into a chatterbox, and you've not stopped talking to anyone and everyone since.  You really matured by April, and quit needing a bagillion reminders about EVERYTHING and started seeing things that needed doing and actually pitching in.  End of July or so you had your first dentist appointment.  In August when Ruth was potty trained, you up and decided that you didn't need night time pull ups any more and just went cold turkey.  We began homeschooling in September and you have been so very excited with it.  It has been a transformative year for you, and I would have never been able to guess how much you would have grown this year.

You have so many questions, and are eager to learn about everything.  The first topic you picked for school was dinosaurs, and we spent 3 whole months learning about around 20 different dinosaurs.  I learned more than I ever thought possible.  Anytime you asked a question about something different, that I couldn't answer, you would say well maybe we will learn about that next in school.  We are currently learning about stars, a passion Grumps shared with me that I'm excited to share with you.  You talk all day long, but especially when we are in the car.  You chatter about everything that comes into your mind, I no longer have to wonder what is going on in there, because there is nothing you keep to yourself.  I have shared a humorous story with several others, that has happened quiet often now.  You will be talking away 90 to nothing, asking questions, posing answers, not really expecting answers or giving anyone a chance to reply, talking about whatever comes to mind, when all of a sudden I will realize that the car has grown quiet and that you stopped in mid sentence.  I can check the rearview mirror only to discover that you have passed out mid sentence.  You only sleep these days in the car seat.

Of course you acquired a new sister this year.  You are as tender and caring toward Rebecca as you always were toward Ruth.  You go out of your way to get her toys or her taggie.  You are good about sharing with her.  Letting her play with your dinosaurs, and rushing in to pick up any toys that might be too small for her before she can devour them.  You often ask to help feed her, and are great at entertaining her.  She loves to hear you sing, even better than hearing your Daddy sing.  She smiles for you more quickly than anyone else, and she began attempting to say your name by buzzing her lips very early.  Her fourth word I guess after ma-ma, da-da, and bye-bye.  You certainly seem to enjoy the role of big brother.

The bond you have with Ruth continues to amaze me and your Daddy.  I didn't have such a close relationship with any of my brothers, but we weren't as close in age.  Daddy says that isn't it either, as he and Aunt Manna weren't as close as you two.  It's something special you share.  The two of you are in seprable, and last week, you weren't thrilled to discover that she was in a different class at coop.  You both play the same games, and have wonderful imaginations.  She really admires you and wants to do whatever you are doing.  You are very protective, and I often hear you promising to sneak her desert when I have told her that she can't have any.

Until the last month or two you have always insisted that she (or occasionally one of your toys) is your best friend.  Now you often tell me that Christopher is your best friend, and you have loved finally having a boy your own age to play with.  The two of you can get wild, the way that only boys can when they get together, but it cheers my heart to watch you.  You have also found a really good friend at the library, Steve, who is about your age.  Over a month or so, I watched you learn to share and take turns, and get pretty good at it with minimal intervention from me (or Steve's mom).  Like I've said, you have grown so much this year.

Perhaps what is most amazing to me is to see how real God, Church, and spiritual things have become to you.  I don't feel like I have spent that much time reading to you, or working with you on these things, and perhaps I would never feel like I have spent enough time on these things.  You have learned a number of bible verses in the last two years, and some rather lengthy ones this year.  More and more I can remind you that God would not be happy with your attitude or ask you to repeat a Bible verse back to me, and you straighten up your behavior.  Fixing the actual attitude is something you still need to work on (but don't we all).  You often talk about God, about Church, asking questions about heaven or different Bible stories we've read or related to you.  You listen when I read to Daddy on the way to Church and ask questions from time to time.  You remember an astonishing amount of the lessons I try to impart, or that I point out in the sermons that we hear.  Most endearing is listening to you pray.  You have been praying for a baby brother who will sleep with you for months.  Not only at night now, but at lunchtime, too. Since explaining to you that we can't choose what the next baby will be only God does, I've overheard you talking to God when you are in your room alone, telling him that you want the next one to be a boy, and saying, "I know you can arrange that."  You have taken the basic prayer that I grew up with and taught to you, and you have added so many.  You pray for your best friend Christopher sometimes two or three times in one prayer.  You pray for others we talk about being sick, something that I didn't really prompt.  To see your concern and empathy for others, sometimes moves me to tears.  You told Ms. Shannon last week at co-op that you were praying for baby Jacob in her belly who is sick.  I can see that the Lord has already worked in your heart, and hope that you will one day desire to unite with the Church, and that these things will always be dear to you.

I am sure that this year will hold many new first as well.  You have asked to play baseball, and we plan to find a team this spring.  You have been working with Kita, but you are asking to do a class at "dog school" on your own with her this year.  Perhaps this summer.  You also want to learn to play guitar, fiddle, and banjo.  Your Daddy has brought his first guitar back from Florida, and you are beginning to experiment with it, before we commit to getting you an instrument of your own.  You have asked to learn your favorite song first, "The Smile on My Face"  (Allison Krauss's "When You Say Nothing at All").

There aren't enough words to tell you just how dear you are to us, little man.  We love you and pray all of God's blessings upon you.

Love,
Momma

Ruth: "Me read a book about snowmans. Then me eat some cake cause everyone get hungry.  Then me do so more (unintelligible)."