Will and Jon,

So much has happened since our last letter.  I took your 3 month photos but since we were traveling and everything was hectic I didn't have a chance to write a letter.  We have had several first since 2 months.  You both can easily flip from back to stomach, pushing up with those legs, and occasionally roll back to the front.  Will, you laughed for the first time a few days ago and seem to have discovered your fist.  You stare at it in great fascination, slowly opening and closing it.  I don't think any of your siblings, ever analyzed their hands in such intense fashion.  Will, you have also become quite talkative lately.  Jon, you carry on conversations while giving out big smiles, and just love to have someone shower you with attention.  You are better at getting your thumb out of your fist and sucking on it now and even cuddle some.  Both of you still stink at taking a pacifier.  Though if we hold it for you, sometimes it helps you get to sleep.

Nursing is going really well now.  I have never enjoyed nursing.  It isn't the lovey dovey, bonding experience for me that has been touted.  But you both are teaching me to slow down.  That everything doesn't have to be productive all the time.  It's ok to just sit and feed babies.  Despite still not getting that oxytocin high, I will admit that it makes me feel kind of like Superwoman to be able to nurse you both at the same time.  And whether tandem feeding or back to back feeds, I'm super happy to have made it this far with two of you, and no end in sight.

You two pretty well stick to a schedule of every three hours, after your morning feed.  Sometimes you wake a 6, sometimes 7 or 8.  You nurse together or back to back and fall back asleep till around 9ish.  Sometimes you snack then, and some you just wake up.  This is the time of day you are both the happiest.  You are alert and will hang together by yourself as long as you are propped up in the double boppy on our bed.  Sometimes Kate watches tv with you, and you both seem curious to listen to Bluey, sometimes it even looks like you are watching tv.  Other days you hold hands and coo to each other and Daddy while he works.  Usually around 11, Daddy brings you downstairs to us during school because you have had your limit.  Then you need to be nursed and held.  Occasionally you both nurse to sleep and stay asleep, but rarely.  You both nurse again at 2 and 5, their are some cat naps while being held, but anytime any of us try to put you down, you are awake and fussing about it.  When I have had help around like Ahna, I've made good use of it.  During read aloud time or DEAR time the kids hold you.  But much of the time I am wearing you both in the twin wego carrier so that you can nap and I have my hands free for chores around the house, and schooling your siblings.  But I'm not sure how much longer I can manage both of your weight on my front.  Around 7:30, you both get unbearably fussy, mostly because you aren't napping any.  We tend to hold you through supper, pass you back and forth, as you are only happy nursing.  Frequently though that results in you spitting up on us, as you are way too full, and don't really need to nurse, but only want the comfort aspect.  We start trying to get you down for the night around 10 after the others are in bed, occasionally it works around 11 but most nights it is at least three or four tries each and 1 to 2 am before we get you asleep, put in your bed, and you actually stay asleep.

The truth is that you are both lousy sleepers, and we are about to start letting you cry it out more.  As you are capable of sleeping longer stretches, and capable of sleeping without us.  And going on 4 months now with you, is really doing a number on your parents.  We are also hoping to start moving you into the crib in Britt's room, once we can lay both down, and you stay down, since you are sleeping till morning now.

In addition to both fighting sleep (though Jon you are probably worse about that) you also both are very strong little boys.  You love to sit up in the pillow, though you are a bit wobbly and at times wiggle so much you look like bobble head dolls.  You also lift your entire chest and part of your stomach up when you lay on your stomach with your elbows locked in place, sprawled out beside you.  Though it hurts my nose to see you do your bobble head thing, and headbutt the ground.  You both always need to be buckled into the swing and bouncer now as you try to flip over or squirm to get your feet up in the air to kick at the toys there.

My boys you are a joy with smiles that light up the room.  If you will agree to sleep at night life with twins would be perfect. ha!  Happy 4 month birthday.  We love you.

Love,
Momma